For the past few weekends, I haven’t been doing much. Time basically revolved around sleep, eat and watch movies/anime. Other than the usual chore of washing clothes, I didn’t do much other chores unlike most weekends. The floor remains not mopped, room remains messy, and newspapers remain unread on the floor.
I myself could not figure out why I was so slack. Haven’t exactly had late nights for last 2 weeks, so I shouldn’t feel that tired over the weekend. I analysed a bit and concluded that somehow, I lack the motivation to do anything. I just wanted to laze around, but that time spent idling proved to be fruitless. What exactly do I need to motivate myself at work and at home?
Perhaps I was just bored. This kind of feeling comes every 2 years or so whereby I feel bored and find nothing interesting. So any guy that comes along and tries to be friendly usually gets to date me. The last time I did do serious dating was 2 years back. Then as time passed, I knew I didn’t really like the guy. I wasn’t really interested in having a long-term relationship and was dating him more of for company. I felt guilty and bad, and so I stopped going out with him. It’s not the first time that I’ve done such. And so I’m really keen about not doing such again.
Watched Meteor Garden series these few weekends. Had watched it before. But that day when a colleague told me about the Korean version, I went online and search. Ended up watching the Taiwanese version again. Somehow, the show enlightened me on some matters, although it did take up quite some time. Anyway, I was wondering would Hua Ze Lei been a better choice for San Cai considering she had liked him initially, and he was always there being her guardian angel?
The show highlighted to me the differences between the hot-headed kind of guys like Dao Ming Si and the artistic silent ones like Hua Ze Lei. It is so different to be with either one. Yet what exactly is it to be with someone? Just for the company? The hugs and kisses? The mental support? Make life more interesting? But if it was for the first two, wouldn’t it be similar to having rendezvous? If it was for the last two, wouldn’t bosom friends suffice? Why must there be a particular someone?
I myself could not figure out why I was so slack. Haven’t exactly had late nights for last 2 weeks, so I shouldn’t feel that tired over the weekend. I analysed a bit and concluded that somehow, I lack the motivation to do anything. I just wanted to laze around, but that time spent idling proved to be fruitless. What exactly do I need to motivate myself at work and at home?
Perhaps I was just bored. This kind of feeling comes every 2 years or so whereby I feel bored and find nothing interesting. So any guy that comes along and tries to be friendly usually gets to date me. The last time I did do serious dating was 2 years back. Then as time passed, I knew I didn’t really like the guy. I wasn’t really interested in having a long-term relationship and was dating him more of for company. I felt guilty and bad, and so I stopped going out with him. It’s not the first time that I’ve done such. And so I’m really keen about not doing such again.
Watched Meteor Garden series these few weekends. Had watched it before. But that day when a colleague told me about the Korean version, I went online and search. Ended up watching the Taiwanese version again. Somehow, the show enlightened me on some matters, although it did take up quite some time. Anyway, I was wondering would Hua Ze Lei been a better choice for San Cai considering she had liked him initially, and he was always there being her guardian angel?
The show highlighted to me the differences between the hot-headed kind of guys like Dao Ming Si and the artistic silent ones like Hua Ze Lei. It is so different to be with either one. Yet what exactly is it to be with someone? Just for the company? The hugs and kisses? The mental support? Make life more interesting? But if it was for the first two, wouldn’t it be similar to having rendezvous? If it was for the last two, wouldn’t bosom friends suffice? Why must there be a particular someone?
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